Its always hard to tell people the truth. Especially when the truth is really harsh. I had to tell the girl angela that my ex was seeing that he was well saying things to me like he loved me and blah blah blah. I really didn't want to watch him hurt anyone else. I know she appriciated it but still i mean its never fun to hear that your boyfriend is cheating on you.
Sometimes at night I think about my life (taht sounds like i'm depressed or something) and i think about what i want what i have and what i need. i dont have all i want but i do have all i need. So why then when i am walking through the mall is it that all i can say or thing is "i want I want I want?" I feel selfish and controlling.
I also thiunk about all my friends. its hard enough to miss them let alone fight with them. my one friend...molly. She goes to a different highschool then me and made a whole bunch of new friends. I like that its cool and all but them she decided not to call or hang out with me...FOR TWO WHOLE MONTHS. What did she expect a welcoming commitee after deserting her friends. So when she did start to talk to me i was bitter. So bitter then i really didn't care what the hell she did anymore. She could go around with anyguy she wanted and i didn't care and i hated her. still do, buyt then she goes and maked out with a friend of mines boyfriend. she gets caught shirt off and everything. Ugh then when i telll her i am not gonna stand up for her SHE GETS MAD AT ME becuas ei am not being their for her. Well if she would stop pulling that shit she wouldn't need me. In short i havent talked to her in 2 weeks and i could care less. usually when we fight i crack after 12 days but now i feel nothing for her becuase she could no longer need me and when that happens you fill up with bitter and don't care about those who left you behind no more.
